The plan was supposed to be at my house but I insisted on going out instead, so we met up at the nearest (and maybe only) milktea place around and stayed there. My friend Dana went on a sudden visit at my house because she had nowhere else to be so I invited her to come along.
"I wonder what they’re watching"
*suddenly creeps beside them to know what they’re watching*
Anyway, later that evening, we decided to have dinner instead. Dana left early before billing out and that’s when we realized that the last time that we actually hangout alone (and I mean, just the four of us alone) was last April 2013! We see each other quite a lot of times but we weren’t usually complete, or when we’re complete, it’s either we have our counterpart guy friends with us.
April 12, 2014. That night was a big deal to us considering that we are very nostalgic people when you have us bundled up together! Plus, the fact that we’re eating at our usual eating place- Shakey’s (our most deluxe favorite place to hangout since senior year in high school). We talked about a lot of stuffs, planned future trips, business, boys, school, and other very random things. I tell you, it was like a scene taken from the HIMYM whenever they’re hanging out altogether at the usual bar too. I completely love them.
Frustrations always kills the hell inside of our souls countless of times. Do you know the feeling of actually owning something, having someone, or dreaming of something makes you feel so insecure of yourself? That feeling that you already have something you always thought you wanted turns out to be a complete bologna gibberish nonsense drivel otherwise known as (excuse me for my word), ‘bullshit’. So why still continue something that brings out a total disaster inside of you? Simply because we believe that at first, it would just test us on how well we could cope up with it even though we keep on failing. It is highly impossible stop failing. A lot of people fail but ends up being happy in the end. So don’t stop trying unless you decided to live a life filled with regrets and those nonsense ‘what ifs’. Even if it hurts for almost what seemed a thousand years and you cry an ocean: stick to what you really wanted in the first place. You can’t start having doubts with it because it was actually the first thing that came up to your mind. Always keep in mind that we can never have something we want immediately (unless your parents are billionaires) not until we earn it and then finally realize all the freakin’ hardships we have been through that made us almost give up come to a very rewarding success after all.
Birthdays. Setting fires. Holding hands. Making stew on cold nights. Mountain climbing. Sleep. First dates. Vacation. Spending the day in bed. Buying wedding rings. Exploring a forest. Playing peekaboo with a baby. Watching someone smile genuinely. Camping. Stargazing. Counting rings on a tree. Realizing that someone loves you. Returning that love. Getting drunk for the first time. Smell of old books. Looking through black & white photos. Learning your ancestors’ names. Laughter. Hot chocolate. The feeling of getting back up after falling down. First day of college. Last day of college. Acing a job interview. Screwing one up and realizing it’s not the end of the world. Collecting shells. Sunbathing. Listening to someone’s heartbeat. Sound of waves crashing against shore. Rain hitting a tin roof. Heartbreak that turns into heart-healing. Your own house. Decorating that house. Coming home to someone you love. Hearing the sound of their footsteps on the stairs. Honesty of fall leaves. Their colors. Fresh snowfall. Singing favorite songs off-key. Seeing love come into someone’s eyes. Watching your parents look at each other like the very first time. Sunrise. Sunset. The way fire burns into ash. Smell of a campire. Waking up with light spilling over the sheets. Breakfast in bed. Living long enough to watch wounds heal over. Change. Wilderness. Forgiveness. Change some more. More change. Spring. Flowers blooming, opening up like you can. Good memories. Learning how to forget bad ones. Warm feet in a cold bed. Sleeping with the only person you care about. Waking up to their mouth and arms. Smiles that reach all the way to the eyes. Letting go of balloons like dead weight. Floating in water on your back. Skydiving. Risk. Adventure. First C on a test. First A. Favorite teacher. First poem. Last poem. Holidays with family. Roadtrips. Changing the sheets. Your father’s gnarled hands when he grows old. Grandchildren. Children of your own. Their first day of college. Their graduation. Their wedding. Anniversaries. Making daisy chains. Smell of freshly-cut grass. Pride. Feeling good about yourself. Loving what’s in the mirror. Not being afraid anymore. No more heaviness. No more grief. Survival. Picking berries til your fingers are stained dark. Frost on windows. Holding someone without sex. Sex with love. The joy of swearing. Counting the years you’ve lived. Another candle on the birthday cake. Another mark of victory. That bellyache laugh that hurts all over. But hurts so good. Breath freezing in winter. Feeling that breath on your skin. Someone’s eyelashes blinking into your palm. Accomplishment. Self-worth. Love. Triumph. Sitting under willow trees without weeping. Apologies that get accepted. Understanding that comes from forgiveness. First fight. First makeup afterward. Less hurt. More good.
As promised from my previous post, here’s an updated playlist I’ve just uploaded for you guys to listen. It has been a while since the last time I made one.
- On Our Way - The Royal Concept
- Chocolate - The 1975
- Same Love - Macklemore ft. Ed Sheeran
- Believer - American Authors
- Queen Of Disaster - Lana Del Rey
- Best Day Of My Life - American Authors
- Comme des Enfants - Coeur de Pirate
- Love - Matt White
- Cigarettes - Russian Red
- Come As You Are - Yuna
- Discovery - Swing Tree
- Young Blood - The Naked and Famous
I don’t know how to make a downloadable zip file (I know, I really do suck at this) so I hope you can bare with me through this one instead. Click here to download the songs
Anyway, I made it to the second week of summer! Yay. Still no progress in being productive, yet I justifiably managed to take part in the real world: hanging out with my friends. Since all of my relatives are living in the provinces and in different parts of the globe, I don’t have any other choice but to be with my friends instead. Anyway, before, I was the kind of person who would just lie around in bed the whole day and watch random tv shows on my laptop, or read a 500+ page book, and daydream. Now, I’m willing to compromise with myself! It’s so fun! Getting to go out with my high school friends that I haven’t seen in months!
And as irrelevant as this post is getting to, here are a few photos of the recent days (or weeks) lately…